December 2010
These days
Betrayed. I think that’s how I feel. But complainig seems pointless. The thing is, we hold way too long on one thing. We stick aroud waitng for the damn epilogue when the story never even existed. So im not running or hiding. I think I need to let go. Let go of myself perhaps. But see here’s the thing I struggle so often with, the feeling that I do and think such nice things but in...
Good day
And im saying liens good day to you. I’ve been thinking about secrets. Something all of us have. It’s the one thing we lock up in our closets and save for a rainy day. Secrets fuel life. The engines of tomorrow, perhaps. And that’s where im stuck, because sure I have secrets. But my biggest secret yet doesn’t eat away at me. But it is locked up in a drawer. It was written...
Merry christmas bloggers
Christmas is supposed to be a day of happiness. I see that the world is happy too. I feel the need to reflect. This year has been sad and happy and depressing and exciting and adventurous. Each day a new adventure to the world as i see it. And I feel like not starting over, because that’s hopeless. But I feel like breathing in an optimistic slate for me. A new world as we know it. My theme...
Reaching out
Sleep. What the hell is that? for the past week, i haven’t gone to bed until around three or four. and it’s bad because when i was younger i used to go to bed wayyy to late. it sucks because i think too much about everything. and it’s hard to not take poeple seriously. no matter what. i feel terrible because people are people. they fuck up and whats it to you? because i fucked up...
did you hear what they said? rock and roll is dead
it’s a great day to be alive guys. a great day that we gotta share with people we love. two days until christmas actually. and it doesn’t really seem real because there’s no snow. but anyway i just want to say good morning. just wanted to mention that we’re still alive and it’s gonna be short and sweet. and i have no idea what this day is going to bring and i love it....
puzzle pieces
i feel like it’s a ruling matter, something i’ve been thinking about lately. like maybe the possibility of finding people exactly like you is impossible. but we all fit together like puzzle pieces. me and my best friends stayed up late the other night talking about life. and we’ve found eachother in mysterious ways that i can’t comprehend. but it makes sense. we’re...
i just want to write
this week has been great, phenomenal even. i have reunited with my old best friends and we’ve had so much fun. it feels great to see everyone again. feels good to be there, in the past for once. and everyone is so amazing. i love my friends, they are the greatest things ever. they are the people i can go to about anything or everything. And this week i feel like things are changing. like...
My thoughts
yesterday i was thinking. this is gonna sound cheesy-but life is like a road. and it’s so true. it’s like at one moment you’re traveling down this long road that seems like it means something. like maybe you’ll be happy once you reach the end of the road. and then you finally get there, and it dead ends into a brick wall. you’re not at happiness. you’re in pain....
My thoughts
yesterday i was thinking. this is gonna sound cheesy-but life is like a road. and it’s so true. it’s like at one moment you’re traveling down this long road that seems like it means something. like maybe you’ll be happy once you reach the end of the road. and then you finally get there, and it dead ends into a brick wall. you’re not at happiness. you’re in pain....
disapearing
i’ve disapeared from this world. from facebook, from my mind. everything i’ve ever known is changing. falling apart or is it falling together. i can’t decide. youknow? it’s like in minutes, even seconds EVERYTHING you ever know-can change. and i don’t know why. maybe because everything has to change eventually of course, it keeps us moving and not sticking to one...
Denial
Today i read something from someone, and i think i almost threw up. i’m not even joking. i felt sick to my stomach. love. that’s what i’m thinking of. i’m not sure why all the good people in this world wait around so long for good thinks to happen to them in return but only the bad things do actually happen. i’m sitting here, wondering about everything that’s...